I guess I need to let you all know what is going on

I want to start out by saying thank you from the bottom of my heart for your thoughts, prayers, and support for me and my family during this difficult time. I dont like to share a lot b/c I feel like I am bearing my soul too much. I dont want to offend anyone with what I say nor do I want to sound needy. That is why I have not shared since January. A good friend suggested that I get back on here and start sharing something.
I have had many health issues since my brain surgeries which include; TIA, dizzy spells, passing out, seizures, migraines daily, and short-term memory loss. On top of that I take over 25 pills a day not including pain medication. Still fighting for disability and my wife has about worn out her candles at both ends trying to keep this family afloat. She is a true champ and deserves whatever medal that can be given in this situation. I love her and cherish her for all she has done for me. If I could just trade places so I could take care of her I feel better. I know I cant at this time but maybe one day God-willing I can. I have three beautiful children and I am thankful for them as well. My littlest one has Down Syndrome and she is just so funny. They all keep me going.
Of course you can figure out that we are struggling more than normal. We are in such a bind in any way imaginable so I wont go there to bear my soul. I just ask that you pray and ask God to show us how to make it. I have been battling depression in such a way that I am not used to that. I am used to being stable and taking care of everyone so it has been an adjustment for me and my wife. She tries to help me and deal with me and I am thankful for the most part she is patient with me. I am so used to being in the ministry working with youth on a daily basis. I am used to helping anyone in times of need and going on mission trips all over the world. It is way different being on the other end receiving help. I get embarrassed and upset b/c I dont like being in the position. I am thankful I have friends that remind me of that from time to time to shut up and accept any help that may come. It was put to me in this way: " If you deny us from giving you a gift then you deny God's blessings for all parties". That was powerful and that was humbling to hear. I would never want to reject God blessing someone b/c of my pride. So, I am trying to be a better steward of all this.

Love to you all,

Walter, Shannon, and kids